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Cornershop – fatboyslim remix of brim full of asher

Animal magnet – welcome to the monkey house

Echo Belly – King of the kurb

Pearl Jam – Jeremy, Alive

Happy Mondays – step on

Charlatons – north country boy

The Farm – groovy train

James - laid

Ash – girl from mars

The only ones – another girl another planet

Buzzcocks – ever fallen in love with someone

Undertones – teenage kicks

Reef – place your hands

Inspiral Carpets – Saturn 5

The Boo Radleys – wake up boo

Space – female of the species

Dodgy – staying out for the summer, good enough

Beck – Looser

Prodigy – out of space

Joy division – love will tear us apart

Bjork- human behaviour

Avalanches – Frontier psychiatry

Spin Doctors – Two princes, little miss can’t do wrong

Placebo – Nancy boy

The Cure – boys don’t cry

The cardigans – love fool

The wanna dies – you and me song

The divine comedy – national express

Foo fighters – For all the cows

Radiohead – creep

The XX – heart skipped a beat

Bush - swallowed

Electrasy – morning after glow

Chilli Peppers – give it away now

Chemical brothers – another dimension, bloc rocking beats

Cyprus Hill – Insane in the membraine

Fat boy slim – rockerfeller skank

Utah Saints – something good

The Shaman – Ebenezer Good

Smashing pumpkins – bullet with butterfly wings

Ting Tings – that’s not my name

They might be giants – bird house in your soul

Bare naked ladies – one week

Stiltskin – Inside

Babylon Zoo – Space man

Betty Bo – Doing the Do

Deep Blue Something – Breakfast at Tiffanys

Suede – animal nitrate

Underworld – born slippy

Massive attack - teardrop

Blackgrape – name of the father

Catatonia – road rage

Moloko – bring it back

Gorky’s Zygotic Mynci – patio song

Manic Street Preachers – motor cycle emptiness

Stereophonics – bar tender and the thief

Mory Kante – yeke yeke

Tori amos – professional widow

I want to be a sociable person, I truly do.  I will sit and make surface connections with just about anybody but get too close and I’ll clam up like a shell - my mother used to say like a hedgehog.  This message has been reinforced thanks to my uncanny ability to choose the wrong people to open up to.

When other people have parties and birthdays I have an uncanny ability to find washing up to do, a chair on my own somewhere or a small child to sit and talk to.  It’s one of the things I like about smoking, smaller numbers outside, I find it much easier.  Ever since my eldest son was diagnosed with Aspergers I’ve wondered whether this is the aspie part of me?  Anyway… I’m digressing.

Birthdays prove a little difficult when you’re such a socially awkward person.  I’ve tried having meals out (found it really hard as I only got to speak to a few people), I’ve spent a quiet night in (a little pathetic and sad but at least I wasn’t being a social numptie!) and I’ve also cancelled my birthday all together, had cards hidden and refused to acknowledge it.  The latter has been my favorite option but I have discovered that it pisses people off.

So this year I turn thirty.  The big 3 0.  To prove I’ve been working hard in my therapy sessions I’ve agreed to have a party.  A big indi disco.  Those who follow me on twitter have been experiencing my panics over venues, my desire to find reasons to cancel… but I haven’t.  I’m sticking with it.  I shall go to the ball but I’m not too sure that the venue will let me hide in the kitchen!!